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Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Here comes the emotional roller coaster

It is that time again for our family, being a military family to move on to our next duty station. With a PCS (Permanent Change of Station) comes waves of emotions. I am a glass half full kind of gal and it's times like these that it pays off. Let's start with the sad first and I will end with the happy. We are leaving our first home, first home we bought. Wow, such a milestone in our adult lives to purchase a home and now it is time to say goodbye. We may never see this house again, which is okay. Or we just may be back here again! As a mother and wife I have grown leaps and bounds in the mothering department, being a SAHM, and being a Christian wife. There are a lot of good women around me I have to thank for that and those women I will miss. It was such a blessing to be surrounded by Christian Army wives and mom's. Little Isabelle, who is growing like a weed has made many friends herself. She will miss her girlfriends and I am sure I will be hearing their names in months to come. One thing I have learned and watched is how resilient Military children are; all children are in general. However our children will learn and are learning that our lives will change every few years and that it doesn't have to be a bad thing. Hopefully leading by example our girls will learn that we can now bless and be blessed by new friends, a new home, etc... Back to this dessert; we have experienced crazy brown outs/sand storms,drought, have been blasted by a hot hot sun, and have hiked through some gorgeous mountains. Although I have come to appreciate the rocky forms, I will not miss you. :) On a happier note... Since being here we've had our second little girl who is truly an angel. Such a blessing she is to us. We have been able to travel to New Mexico because of her doctor appointments and that has been such an adventure and learning experience. Seeing another part of the Southwest and experiencing different culture. Many pictures and memories to show the girls when they are older. Although my husband has struggled with his unit he has been with here, he has been stateside for 2 and a half years. Such a blessing in this time of war. We have had 2 birthdays, Christmas', New Years, Anniversary's, etc...and it has done our hearts good. We know we will be facing another deployment as early as this fall; but God will carry us through another one and we're ready for the next chapter of our lives. As I sit in my living room with my girls playing house and eating cheerios part of me want's to just break down and feel sorry for myself, but why? Ahh we have so much to look forward too! Again the benefits of being a SAHM are allowing me to go home for the summer to Wisconsin with our girls. To see our families, friends, extended family. Jake will go to school for a month knowing his ladies are in good hands. I am ready to see the girls play in the grass and to watch a black ant (NOT RED) tickle Lydia's hand as it crawls around. Ready for grandma's to giggle with joy over something silly Isabelle has said. Ready to have Jake stain his sneakers green as his dad will let him cut the grass. Our girl's will get to go to a fair or 2 and see the big Wisconsin dairy cows and all the baby chicks. We will wake up to the soft sound of a train coming down the track and softly blowing it's whistle. Another new sound Lydia will learn. The thing I look forward to most is RAIN. Yes you know the country song 'rain is a good thing!' I am like a kid in the candy store when I just think of the rain pattering on the roof tops and hitting the windows. Maybe we'll even get a few rainbows. The list goes on and on. Needless to say I am grateful we won't be here to watch our household goods get packed up. That we won't be sleeping on an air mattress in an empty house with 2 little ones. We have a close friend so graciously willing to oversee the movers. I am grateful that we aren't driving back the 27 hours, that my father in law has once again volunteered to help us(Jake)out with the drive. I will wake up the 26th and take my last shower in our home. Have a cup of coffee with my husband and then we will wake our girls up, have our last bowl of cereal and daddy will take us to the airport. We will ran de vous with him on the 2nd of July. I am thankful that I can lean on my husband for his strength knowing that he is my rock. This move is so different than our first, but with it comes the same excitement of change and being able to start over again. I read in a book by Priscilla Shirer something that has always stood out to me, she writes that 'a satisfied women is noticeable and restful...' That is my thought for these next couple of months. It will hit me late next Tuesday nigh the girls are tucked in for the night, that our time in El Paso is over, that we won't be going back to our home there, that it really is time to start over. And when it does, I look forward to being able to go up to my mom or dad, and just let the tears fall as they hold me...and then I will have gotten over the last hill of the roller coaster! (We always need our mom and dad don't we?) :) Photobucket

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