A heavy heart

I am in a rut... Missing my man... A wife of a Soldier...leaves a lot of 'missing you' times. So I thought I would write about it. Last night I watched an old black and white with my mom; about 4 Soldier returning from WWll and the how the 4 of them were dealing with life and integrating back into what is considered normal life. One Soldier, a Navy man, lost his hands. He came home with prostheses(sp?) hands, he had to rely on his father and mother for help with certain things...of course there was a women involved. His neighbor, a child hood sweet heart. The beauty of it all was she didn't even notice his hands, she loved him so much and didn't care that she had to help him for forever-she saw right past it. He was willing to let her go, but she didn't want to go anywhere. She still loved him and just wanted HIM. My heart aches and I have to pray to God to take away the fears I have of the unknown with my husband and his job. All the unknowns we have yet to face knowing he is deploying again. Jake has only been gone a few weeks, but having him state side the last 2.5 years makes a month away drag on and on. I am an optimistic though, heaven knows you won't last being married to a Soldier if your a pessimist. If you are, well everyone knows how depressed you must be and unhappy! Seriously! :) Anyhow, When I get down like this I have to stop and look around at the beautiful things I, we, do have and thank God for the daily reminders I have of my husband around me. It makes the time we do have together so much sweeter. Our love is so strong. Always having the want and desire to be in each others arms again. To say goodnight to each other, to wake up to each other...every time Jake leaves for longer than a few weeks, I get to fall in love with him all over again! I literally get butterflies and sweaty palms waiting to pick him up. I blush and get all tongue tied and all I can think to do is hug and kiss him. I am thinking of that today-not the negative, not the scary. It's Friday, another stick, hot, day. Not as hot as Jake is in OK right now, triple digits...He made his E6. STAFF SERGEANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!He waited 1 year and 4 months. He has been short by 2 points (it's all based on a point system) at least 2 times...with that said we are so proud, so honored, and walking on air with Jake's promotion. Thank you Jesus! Happy Friday

(beer cans, courtesy of my 26th birthday party and 4 good friends.)